I am trying to revover from the death, funeral and burial of my grandmother and move into the phase in my life beyond her being around. I am trying to get ready for Easter. I am trying to wrap up a few varied matters.
Mostly I look at how amazingly horrible almost everything seems as I look back at so much of my life. It is staggering to me. I am not sure what the next step for me is nor how to care. But I am sure the deep sense of horror I feel is growing. It is nearly absolute.