I no longer have very many concerns about “freaking out” or “having a nervous breakdown” or “losing it”. That is mostly because in many ways my life is already as bad as it can get. In the ways that it is not a total hell others would have to do most of the things they are not doing for me to lose all those I care about, go to prison, be maimed or whatever. At various times in my life I have run many risks and exposed myself to a great deal of danger. However, I have never believed anyone could function like that all the time and so I am both quiet and cautious to an outrageous degree rather than outrageous.
But here are reasons why I am not having a nervous breakdown over the BP Oil Leak yet.
I would have a nervous breakdown over the oil leak but…
1. I am too tired from following this story to get the energy up for a breakdown.
2. I am afraid friends from New York will say “Why didn’t you have a breakdown after 9-11 then?”
3. I am afraid that I will need my nervous breakdown for responding to the way this crisis is handled a few years from now.
4. I am reminded of all the suffering animals, birds, fish and other living things and it seems selfish to have a nervous breakdown if they can’t.
5. I tried to find the nervous breakdown form online but I could not.
6. I think I should try to be sane in case one of my many friends who are fishermen, shrimpers, oystermen, seafood pickers, processors, icehouse owners, fishmongers, guides, brokers and hoteliers should call — I want to be strong for them.
7. I am not sure if having a break-down is going to improve my tough South Louisiana image.